Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
the sun rises the same,
the thoughts anew,
rising with yesterday’s promise,
but before the sun could reach its zenith,
the thoughts devolved,
devolving back into yesterday.
Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
thinking of tomorrow’s changes,
stepping the same,
walking the same,
running the same,
wishing for change, acting the same, grasping at pleasure,
tomorrow became yesterday.
Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
yesterdays mistakes are written down on paper,
never again, that’s the last time, I’m new now,
“Can’t you read the writing”,
the clock tic’s, the dog barks, the day passes,
and the paper is still there,
pen in hand, scratching away the word: yesterday,
just to write yesterday again.
Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
boundless energy is finally contained,
It’s thoughtless, mindless, blissful existence,
intrinsic feelings rise,
but a thought comes, singular, innocent, disguised well,
it knocks,
breaking the chains,
the energy is once more directionless,
shackles placed on bliss,
It tu becomes yesterday.
Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
leaving behind comfort,
seeking struggle, for it is the only thing that should be sought after,
but after just one dance,
the comfort calls,
missing me and I, it,
I owe it a dance too, I say,
I take her home, sleeping with her,
happy in the moment,
but at night, comfort leaves, the struggle calls,
having left her on the dance floor,
shame, yesterday I said it would be different.
Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
the shame-filled memories carry me forward,
but those feelings are like candle flames,
soon it’ll be extinguished for it can never burn forever,
no light then,
no guide then,
the path in darkness,
stumbling, crawling, crying,
babe seeking her mother,
I find the familiar path,
yesterday.
Yesterday I said it’ll be different,
tonight I say tomorrow.
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